i didn't forget you after all

... it has been months since i saw his angelic face. Months since I saw his smile. His smile. His oh-so-charming smile. :(

Three months it has been and every single day, he's always on my mind. I don't really know the reason why I still write this crap. It's idiotic, really.


My soul was taken over by fantasy. I was living a lie. A lie which made me think the feeling was reciprocated, which is certainly not. So I did the next best thing. I made myself busy with school activities to escape from pain. To escape reality. I thought what I did was enough, it wasn't.

My actions made it harder for me. Yes, i thought i forget him. Now that he's gone, what was left of me was nothing.

My mind tells me to forget him, but my heart contradicts with the idea.